Today is the last day of 2015. Over the past few days we have moved from BC to Alberta, moved into a new apartment (on the third floor…with no elevator), bought a new car, visited an Ikea that is seven minutes away (with no toll bridge in between home and Ikea!) and prepared for Austin to start a new job on Sunday.

The last few months have been such a whirlwind. Our last miscarriage happened in August and a few days after I lost the baby we were interviewing for this new job for Austin.

I really had a hard time with this loss. I thought it was worse than the other two. Austin says I was the same with the other two but this one felt different, there was more fear attached to it, I felt like a third miscarriage meant that there was something really wrong with me.

It took me a really long time to get my act together and go to the doctor. Every time I picked up the phone to make an appointment I would just start to cry and have major anxiety. I knew everything was okay physically because I had gone through it twice before so I knew what to look out for, and my periods started normally afterwards, but I probably still should have gone in just to be sure. Don’t follow my example.

All that to say, 2016 is going to be the year of the Toews Baby. Whoa, whoa, whoa, settle down, I’m not pregnant. I am simply starting 2016 determined to get healthy, get my weight and blood sugar under control and eventually get pregnant and have a healthy, wonderful pregnancy.

I have a meal plan from my naturopath (in BC, will be looking for one in Edmonton ASAP), I’ll also be looking for a new doctor here so I can really get the blood sugar stuff figured out and more tests for my…um…reproductive…anatomy (?)

Stay tuned as I take on this venture and focus on health in 2016!