Day four of my Candida cleanse. After three days of upset stomach and headaches I felt pretty good. Until the sugar cravings started calling to me. I ate a spoonful of natural cashew butter but it wasn’t cutting it. I looked at my tea station…honey. I took the plastic bear out of its shelf, took another spoonful of cashew butter and had the bear open ready to pour. 

The faces of my little babies flooded my mind and I put down the honey. This is for them, this for the future babies. Health and wellness and ability to conceive and carry a child to term. This is why I’m doing this. In eleven days I can have fruit again and it will be a joyous day, but for now I’m dropping the bear and sipping herbal tea and thinking about this year to come.